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Post by Nonsuch Ned on Dec 16, 2020 14:21:39 GMT
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Post by Mare on Dec 16, 2020 23:28:17 GMT
This one tells why someone's not sleeping...
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Post by Mare on Dec 16, 2020 23:30:18 GMT
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Post by Nonsuch Ned on Dec 17, 2020 18:19:56 GMT
"I'm so Tired" is actually what I tend to sing when I'm tired... so most days of the week lately. I've really got hit by my exhaustion problem lately.
So tired right now, just going to copy and paste this one from SotD
Every night of late I'm wide awake, I'm wide awake Because I feel, feel, feel That every last mistake That I have made, that I have made Has me in pieces
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With every hour that passes I try, I try to tell myself What I know, know, know That nights are only ashes Of days gone by burned black and broken
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Post by Mare on Dec 17, 2020 19:36:09 GMT
"I'm so Tired" is actually what I tend to sing when I'm tired... so most days of the week lately. I've really got hit by my exhaustion problem lately. So tired right now, just going to copy and paste this one from SotD Every night of late I'm wide awake, I'm wide awake Because I feel, feel, feel That every last mistake That I have made, that I have made Has me in pieces .... With every hour that passes I try, I try to tell myself What I know, know, know That nights are only ashes Of days gone by burned black and broken Yes, on my worst days, I keep reliving the horridness of my mistakes-I lied to myself more than anyone else ever did. Then, I remind myself that all is not lost...but will be if I keep beating myself up for what was part of my life experience. (I did learn from those mistakes, I think about self fulfilling prophesies and that I could take the Phoenix path so I don't wreck the time I have left, whatever that will be. And look! I have my Baby Grands, now! They are happy to see me. I CAN go back to my own innocence and boundless joie de vivre. Crawling around with the kids makes me so tired I have no trouble sleeping. Turning off the screens and going outside and taking a picture of the sunset helps, too. I can do that from my front balcony. (Do you still have your fur babies?) Here's another song about why you can be unable to sleep. "Go into a pipedream No one listens anyway When I say I'm so sad about Not so glad about I'm so mad, I can't sleep tonight"
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Post by donavan on Dec 17, 2020 23:15:53 GMT
Mare, on our worst days, we all keep reliving the horridness of our mistakes- And that makes us real. There are people out there that don't/can't/won't do that. And can't even comprehend this. It's not a competition but the fact that you are aware is a massive plus for you. We fuck up, we all do. And always will. If we deal with our biggest fuck ups somewhat then that's good. Still doesn't make anyone better than the next Joe. But sure puts you in a better place, even if that place still hurts. You're a good woman Albert Mare. x
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Post by Nonsuch Ned on Dec 18, 2020 15:16:03 GMT
Yes, on my worst days, I keep reliving the horridness of my mistakes-I lied to myself more than anyone else ever did. Then, I remind myself that all is not lost...but will be if I keep beating myself up for what was part of my life experience. (I did learn from those mistakes, I think about self fulfilling prophesies and that I could take the Phoenix path so I don't wreck the time I have left, whatever that will be. And look! I have my Baby Grands, now! They are happy to see me. I CAN go back to my own innocence and boundless joie de vivre. Crawling around with the kids makes me so tired I have no trouble sleeping. Turning off the screens and going outside and taking a picture of the sunset helps, too. I can do that from my front balcony. (Do you still have your fur babies?) Here's another song about why you can be unable to sleep. "Go into a pipedream No one listens anyway When I say I'm so sad about Not so glad about I'm so mad, I can't sleep tonight" For some reason, last night my mind got stuck on the editor from Anime News Network (I visit most days) that died from a possible suicide a bcouple months into the quarantine. I've since learned that it was as I suspected, it was accidental. He didn't try to kill himself, he was an alcoholic whose usual joys (going to movies, visiting Disney land extremely often) were taken from him and to dull his pain, ended up drinking-- far too much. I learned when his brother accidentally tagged me on Youtube in response to someone saying it was suicide -vague Twitter messages from the guy's friends convinced him of it. I had actually responded to tell him it was just as likely a tragic accident. I theorized his prescription depression medications and alcohol but emphasized we don't know and shouldn't declare facts from hearsay. I thought about his pain, about the grieving brother lashing out on Youtube to "set the record straight." A little about my slight guilt about how I think the site has really improved since the new editor took over. I did come up with a way to distract myself once. I focus on whichever "fur baby" is closest. But my black cat has been afraid of my bedroom ever since the fleas hit, and my calico was protesting some imagined slight and staying away.
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Post by Nonsuch Ned on Dec 18, 2020 15:24:27 GMT
Although, technically, I usually get what should be "enough sleep" (usually 7-8) but I'm tired anyway.
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Post by miles on Dec 18, 2020 21:04:22 GMT
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Post by miles on Dec 18, 2020 21:09:37 GMT
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Post by miles on Dec 18, 2020 22:37:37 GMT
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Post by Nonsuch Ned on Jan 11, 2021 16:42:00 GMT
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Post by Introvertigroo on Jan 17, 2021 16:23:45 GMT
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Post by miles on Jan 17, 2021 19:13:18 GMT
Walking the floor is good for you
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Post by donavan on Jan 17, 2021 20:41:16 GMT
Sleep - Texas
My vids don't work. Any idea why? I'm not losing sleep over it. All I dream of is a friend.
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